Anorexia Recovery & Treatment

I am trying to overcome anorexia and it is so hard. i’ve been in recovery about a year and i really have my ups and downs. Yesterday i ate barley nothing, which i knew was really bad. So today i was extra hungry but i feel like i ate way to much! Im supposed to have dessert twice a week, so i had to have it tonight and now i feel like i binged. Please help.
Breakfast-
Cinnamon Fiber Oatmeal- 160 calories
1 pack of raisins – 45
1 banana
Lunch-
1 portabello and mixed vegtable sandwhich on cuban bread
1 fruit salad (grapes, sliced strawberry and pineapple.
Dinner-
1 house salad- no dressing
1 whole wheat roll
2 panseared crab cakes w/ a side of green beans and carrots
dessert-
1 slice of homemade apple pie
The dessert is part of my meal plan, but i feel like i ate way to much today. Im supposed to be up to 2800 calories and i feel like i exceeded that. I just need some advice from people who arent trying to influence me. Did i eat to much?? And please be kind, this is really hard to deal with. Thanks in advance =]]