Anorexia Recovery & Treatment

ive been in anorexia recovery for a little over a month
the first program i started with they had me count my calories i had to have 1500 a day
then i came to california and joined a diffrent program
we are not allowed to count calories
we have meal plans which are called exchanges
we have to have a ceratin amount of starch(6) protien/meats(3) fats(3) fruit/veg(5) snacks(2)
but i still count calories
i really cant stop
im too afraid to tell my nutritionists and therapists at therapy groups and stuff
im scared
i dont know what to do
should i just tell them?
its not like they can do anything right?
please any advice is greatly appreciated