Apr
13
2010
Do any of you guys have Anorexia, because I need to know what it’s like for and essay for english class?
Posted by: Alan in Anorexia Recovery Diet, tags: Anorexia, because, class, english, essay, guys, it's, Know, like, Need
Does anyone have anorexia? If so, please tell me what its like, what it does to you emotionally, physically, and if it makes you feel self concious in any way.
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April 13th, 2010 at 8:37 am
i am very close but my mom is stopping it because shes in weight watchers and knows theres something wrong with me.. you see for me it’s very addicting and started out with the way i looked at myself in the mirror and though i am showing bones and ribs right now, i still feel like i have flubber. Calorie counting became a tradition everday for me and i wound up eating only about 50 calories and though it made me feel really good because my stomach and legs were smaller and also i was getting a ton of compliments, i began getting cold to the point where i had like 5 sweaters on me..It kinda makes you feel like not going out with your friends too because you dont know what they’ll make you eat and not only that but you are tired all the time. My mom talked to some lady who works with this kinda thing and apparently your hair eventually begins falling out of your head in chunks. well i dont know if this helps and if i concerned you in any way dont worry, (the one below mine lists alot of the stuff i felt too! def. a reliable source)
April 13th, 2010 at 9:11 am
Well, I spent my entire summer in a treatment center (64 days) to help push me along my recovery, and I’m still struggling. I think I’d be able to help you.
Background info: I’m 17, and will be 18 in February. Developed it at age 11.
Eating disorders can start at any age, really. As young as five and as old as one may live. Granted, the wisdom elderly learn over time would aid in preventing an ED, but it is not impossible.
Anyway, on to your question.
Emotionally: It can do anything from making you feel on top of the world (when you’re the skinniest in the room, or have “properly restricted” for a long time) to making you feel like a piece of shit. This is much more common, because it truly just grates on your self esteem. You feel guilty for even eating one grape if you were supposed to be fasting. It truly takes a toll on your emotions and exhausts you because you’re constantly thinking, calculating, and wondering “which has fewer calories, will it make me fat, do I deserve it, do I need it, etc.” You lose relationships because you’re busy isolating. You can’t hang out with your friends because you’ve got a long night with ED planned, full of restricting and browsing calorie-count.com. From a sexual-relationship perspective, you no longer feel like you are worthy of a partner, and your boyfriend deserves so much better than you. You honestly don’t feel as though you should eat. You always are forced to lie to your friends and loved ones because they’re worried about you and you don’t want to disappoint them. Thus, you are now feeling guilty (again) for your lies. Guilt plays a major factor with EDs. To punish yourself for lying to your family, you restrict more.I could go on and on, but I hope you get the gist.
Physically: There are the obvious constant hunger pangs, but really, you phase them out. You don’t notice these things because you’re too busy thinking about that one damn grape you ate three days ago. Your joints are consistently sore and you probably develop osteopenia. I did. Things that you could do even when you weighed more, like walking from the parking lot to school, now make you winded. You can’t focus and you see horrid spots every time you stand up. You have low blood pressure and you may become orthostatic (difference in blood pressure when standing and sitting). You will get bruises SO easily and people in school will ask you if you’ve been beaten. Due to the protein deficiency, most likely dark bags will form under your eyes… so you also become skilled in the art of cover up. Sometimes your eyes will also become blood shot. If you fast for several days in a row, your tongue may appear “furry” as the toxins clear your body. Similarly, toxins exiting your skin will cause many pimples. Of course, you’ll always be tired and never really have that bright-eyed glow. The word “healthy” will not be used to describe your physical demeanor.
Finally, yes it makes you feel self-conscious. You feel like a pregnant whale on steroids no matter what you weigh.
I hope I’ve painted an accurate enough picture for you to do your report. Please, I hope this wasn’t just you looking into “becoming anorexic”. This disease ruins your life, takes up to a decade of it if you do survive, and severely decreases the chance of you ever having kids. I might never hold a baby that I can call my own.